Rest In Peace Baby Chloe

My niece had a baby last Monday.  She was actually due in August.  The baby was only 24 weeks.  Poor sweet baby Chloe didn't make it.  She was only alive for 4 1/2 days.  She had bleeding in her brain and the complications that could/would have caused Chloe to never recover from would have caused her to suffer.  It's incredibly sad, and my heat just aches for my niece and my sister in law.  My niece rocked her to sleep after they took her off all the machines and took out all the tubes.   

When reading stories on the internet it looked like with her brain bleeds she could have still made it.  However, the stories on the internet are the exception.  Of course the people that had their babies live will post.  I didn't find many people that said their babies didn't make it.  It's too painful of a story to post the bad and scary stuff.  When I had lunch with my cousin who is going to school exactly for this.  She told me that Chloe's chances were not in her favor.  I still felt like a miracle could have happened at that point though, but real life happened and boom.  She's gone.

It's an odd thing to 2 weeks ago attend my Grandma's funeral who was 90 years old and now Chloe who only was with us for only 4 1/2 days .  Although I was sad that my Grandma passed away, I understood that is the circle of life.  My Grandma had very long fulfilling life and she was the classic example OF love!  She was looking forward to heaven.  Now this week I will be attending Chloe's funeral.  She never got a shot at life at all.  The only thing she really experienced WAS love.  She had so much love while she was here.  She didn't get to stay with us long, and I still don't understand in the grand scheme of things why she didn't make it.  Sometimes my eyes still see as if they are a child's.  I keep hope and optimism when there isn't much.  It will be hard to feel hope and optimism in the future when something so wrong can happen.

Pray for my niece and her mother.  It will take time for them to recover from this loss, but hopefully God will bless them again someday way down the road with a perfect little peanut that will stay with us longer!

I'm so Blessed

As a Mom we often get frustrated, stressed, a little frazzled, and feel fried.  If you ask any mother out there though everything we do for our children, spouse, family, or even pets is worth it.  We wouldn't change it.  The kind of love you feel when holding your baby for the first time (weather biological or adopted) is such a beautiful, wonderful, and scary kind of love.  Beautiful because it's so easy, wonderful because all you can do is smile, and scary because you know that you will do everything you can to keep that baby safe...always!  My children are my blessings from God.  We are fortunate that they made it through the whole 9 months in Mommy's belly and are just thriving now too.  Lukas almost 4 and Megan at her little 9 month self.  I cannot even express how blessed I feel.  Love you Lukas and Megan!  Aka...My Sweet Monkeys!♥

 

Grocery Store Fun

Megan and Lukas have had to come to the store with me now since my husband got a new job.  At first it was a pain, but if I stop at our local grocery store it's a piece of cake.  They have a cart with two seats and I love it!  I can strap Megan in and Lukas rides nicely yet in there too.  He always wants to walk, but I hate having him "loose" in the store.  Sometimes he gets into a mood and tries to be Lightning McQueen and get away from me!  These carts make that not happen!

Happy Saturday!

1st Tooth...

Megan cut her 1st tooth on April 2nd!  I was so excited when I first saw the little white slit on her bottom gum!  After I got excited and started clapping she started clapping too!  Excitement is contagious!  When Lukas cut his first tooth he had an ear infection and lots of pain.  She was a little fussy, but not too bad.  Just one night she was hard to put back down to sleep after she woke up.  That was it.  I hope all the teeth she cuts are like that.  I doubt it...but one can wish!

Lukas just finished up his teething and probably in the next 3-4 years he will start to lose his teeth.  Megan's little tooth tale is just beginning!

Fun at the Park

Lukas asked if he could push Megan to the park in this stroller.  I told him he could.  He did a fantastic job!  Such a good big brother!

He was careful to not go too fast or gently go over bumps if some came up.  Megan just chilled kicking her feet and babbling while strolling along.

Once we got to the park Megan got to have some fun swinging!  She giggles every time she gets close to you when swinging!

Lukas did some sliding...oh my he loves slides.  He went down on his butt, belly, back, but he never got the nerve to go down face first.  Which was OK with me!

He's telling me "Mom, look how big I am...I'm taller than Daddy!"  He's so funny!  Yep, he was taller than Daddy up there!

Lukas did his share of blowing on dandelions to spread the weed all around the park!  When he blows them he screams "look it's fuzz!" 

Megan ate some dandelions...and grass, and well, dirt.  She puts everything in her mouth right now!

This has got to be one of the sweetest pictures ever!  Lukas picked a flower for Megan and he gave it to her.  He loves his sister so much...it just melts my heart!  After he gave her the flower, then she also put that in her mouth so that pretty much looked like the picture just above this one.  I am most definitely going to frame this one!  Too sweet!

Happy Belated Easter

With everything going on...happy belated Easter.  April is chalk full of birthdays, and of course we said good bye to my Grandma.  It's been nuts-O!

The Friday before Easter we dyed Easter eggs and Lukas had a blast.  Even tipped over one of the colors, but we salvaged it and scooped it back into the cup.  If you notice in the picture above there is no pink, yellow, or any light pretty colors.  Nope.  My son is all about blue and green if you can tell!  With a few orange in there for good measure.  Even though sometimes he tells me his favorite color is pink.  Ha...not that day it wasn't.  He put the pink color pellet in with orange, and the yellow one in with green.  So those colors were missing.

The egg kit came with these 3D glasses.  Lukas thought they were just funny glasses, I thought they make the eggs look neat when you looked at the chalk that we used to draw on them, and my husband said they did nothing. 

Megan watched on while we colored eggs.  She chewed on her cup and babbled while we colored the eggs.  After awhile she got pretty cranky and it was bottle time!

Megan's Easter Basket...fairy ball, princess glasses, and yummy baby food.

Lukas found his basket Easter morning.  He got candy, glasses, chalk, bubbles, and a Cars2 color kit.

Megan's "sunnies"!

Mr. Lukas's cool sunglasses!

It was a bitter sweet Easter.  My Grandma passed away that day, but my children and husband still made the day for me.  Celebrating with them helped me still enjoy the day.  Rest peacefully Grandma.  We will carry on the Easter celebration every year like you always did!



Goodbye Grandma/Great Grandma

I am Sitting Here In Heaven
And Having A Wonderful Day.  I Started Thinking About You
And All The Things I Didn’t Get A Chance To Say.  I Don’t Want You To Worry About Me
And Please Don’t Shed Any Tears, Because I Will Wait For You In Heaven,
If It Takes A Hundred Years.  Everything I Had On Earth
I Have In Heaven Too!  My First Day Here
My Body Became Brand New.  It Is Really Pretty Here
And I Love My New Home, Although Your Heart Is Broken
Because My Body Is Gone.My Love Will Always Be There
As You Go Along The Way, Just Take A Peek Inside Your Heart
There Is Where I’ll Stay.  Know That I Loved My Family
And All My Friends Too, My Thoughts Will Be With Each Of You
Your Whole Life Through.

My Grandma passed away early Easter morning very peacefully with both her daughters by her side.  It's strange how death can hit you so many ways.  I feel sad because I won't get to see her or enjoy her anymore, relieved that she isn't dealing with cancer anymore, and happy that she is now in heaven with my Grandpa and she is in such a wonderful place.  Our family has been stuck in a hold pattern with Grandma being sick from her cancer, and now that we can get back to this "new normal" we will all do what she taught us to do.  To love each other and never forget to enjoy our time with each other.  She was such a strong lady and our family rock for sure.  We learned well from her how to treat each other and always be there for each other.  Family is number 1!

Goodbye Grandma.  I am so happy that God gave me you as a Grandmother.  I am very blessed that you were in my life and you loved me so much!  I will miss you forever, but our memories will live in my heart forever and ever.  I will love you forever Grandma! 

Time

Where in the world does time go?  Seems like I wake up, get myself ready, get the kids ready, and we are off to daycare/work.  Then before you know it I am home again making supper, doing baths, and getting ready for the next day to do it all over again.  With the exception lately of a quick visit to my Mom's house, a walk, going to the store, or even visiting the park most days run like clockwork.  It's busy...crazy busy!  I knew things were going to get much busier once my husband started his new job, but I didn't understand fully...until now of course.  A quick run to the store is far from that and we have even been eating later than we usually do.  Seems like we just don't have enough hours in the day.

As busy has it's been we have been out to our local nature center, on walks, and to the park a couple of times.  Megan got to try swinging for the first time...

and...she loved it!  Can you tell?

We played outside some here and there and the weather is back to spring like temperatures...darn!  Summer will come soon enough! 



Back to the swinging comment.  Lukas loves to push his baby sister while she swings!  It's adorable and he loves her so much!  She likes it too!